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02:28 pm
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Producer's Note
Emo! The Musical is about a lot of things: conformity, love, friendship, impending asteroid doom. But for Beards Beards Beards: A Theatre Company, it's about making our first splash into the Bay Area theatre community. Upon graduation (just over a year ago, yikes!), we looked at the theatre being produced around us, and wondered how we could fit ourselves in. We also wanted to fix a problem we saw: very few people our age (besides our fellow theatre majors) enjoyed going to see a play (let alone a musical). This is where Emo! the musical seemed to be our best bet. The show is an original work (cheap), hilarious (disgusting) and, much like our theatrically-uninterested peers, it's completely self-indulgent and doesn't take itself too seriously.
Emo! was first produced by the Player's Club of SF State in February of 2006. When we announced to the original cast that we would be reviving the show (with some changes), a few raised the question of whether or not the show was still relevant. Should we continue to satirize emo kids and, more importantly, would it still be funny? Then, out of the blue, all of these news stories came pouring in. "Anti-emo riots erupt in Mexico"; "Teenage girl commits suicide over myspace messages sent from neighborhood Mom"; "Emo behavior outlawed in Russia". There was our answer: Good God Yes, emo-ness is here to stay.
In short, emo or not emo, hipster or not hipster, young or… not young, we're really glad you came out. And now that we've got you here, we hope you'll enjoy our first labor of love and keep coming back for more.
Current Location: 505 Natoma
Current Mood:  excited
Current Music: Lover I don't have to Love- Bright Eyes
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02:19 am
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Lata Bitchez
I gotz myself a new blog yo.
Check this shit out.
www.apandarollin.blogspot.com
I promise to write in it. I swear. More than once every two months!
Current Mood:  sleepy
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10:59 am
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How is the summer already over? I feel like yesterday morning I woke up and it was fourth of July, or at least Labor Day weekend. But alas- that was already ONE MONTH ago today. In 30 more days it'll be Halloween. In almost two months Thanksgiving. What the hell is going on?!
I suppose it's not moving that fast. I'm enjoying the remaining two weeks left at my job at the mime troupe (it's seasonal). I still haven't found another job.. But I'm okay with that. It's not like I'll be S.O.L financially (thanks daddy!), and i've been going on a steady stream of interviews. So only time really will tell.
Whatever It Is closed this weekend. It's kind of surreal that it's over. I can't believe we did it. I can't believe we made money. I can't believe that I performed in two different acts, and produced. I don't think I'd do that part over again. It got a little hectic. But overall, I'm proud of myself. Incase you haven't checked it out-- www.beardsbeardsbeards.com-- that's my company's website. Join our mailing list. Be a part of the magic of bearded entertainment!
I'm thinking about going as Margo Tenebaum for Halloween. I'm also thinking about throwing a party at my apartment. I'm also thinking of attending Poltergeist at the Castro tomorrow night. But I'm afraid I'll be scared to go to sleep afterwards. I'm gonna need someone to hold my hand and walk me home. Possibly tuck me in afterwards...
Oh and I'm still not sure if I actually graduated. I haven't receieved anything from State. Like.. a diploma... I don't know how it's possible that I didn't graduate, I know I took all the classes.. the only thing I'm not positive about is some credits I took at UCLA that got sent to state.
Awesome.
Current Location: Mime Troupe
Current Music: Jimmy Dale Gilmore
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05:47 pm
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COME AND SEE MY SHIT!
EVERYTHING YOU NEED TO KNOW IS HERE
Current Location: Mime Troupe
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12:38 pm
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Blast from the Past
Check it out- The Villas circa 1955-
Does this living room look familiar to anybody else?
There are more pictures here
Current Location: Mime Troupe
Current Mood:  geeky
Current Music: Amy Winehouse-pre rehab
Tags: parkmerced, sfsu, the villas
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02:58 pm
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Bad Habits
Here is a list of bad habits that I'm not going to actively try to get rid of ever:
Smoking stuff.
Eating chocolate cake even if it's not anybody's birthday.
Not working at work.
Watching movie musicals. And wishing I was in them.
Eating after midnight.
Singing showtunes in my car.
Starting projects but not finishing them.
Starting books and not finishing them.
Starting movies and not finishing them.
Spending too much time on facebook and myspace. (This one's on the fence).
Biting my nails.
Peeling my sunburns.
Gossiping. In general.
PS. I'm single. If you want to know more you'll have to ask.
Current Location: 855 Treat
Current Mood:  content
Current Music: Neighbor's stupid mexican rap music. turn it down asshole!
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02:48 pm
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Bad Analogies
Finding a good boyfriend is like finding a good apartment..
You have to get there first, or know a friend who knows of something that's available that's in good shape, available, not moldy and affordable.
In short, is it really worth it to move out of a great place? Even if all you need is a change of scenery?
Current Location: Bored at work.
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Interpol
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04:59 pm
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End of Chapter.
I graduated college. What. the. fuck.
My life's kind of moving too fast for my own good.. I feel like saying, "hey driver could you slow the fuck down, I'm not through with the college chapter yet!!!!!"
But I am. And now it's time for the "Post-college-what-the-hell-am-doing" chapter. Should be good. It's so St.Elmo's Fire! I love it!
I'm working with the SF Mime Troupe for the rest of the summer, and possibly more. They offered me a full-time gig, but the details remain to be seen, so we'll see. It's pretty sweet. Professional, non-profit theater troupe (for those who haven't heard) that won a tony!
Meanwhile, I'm gonna audition and see if I can't get myself cast in some sort of play in the next few weeks. If not, I'll be taking the mime troupe's workshop.
In recent and local news, I saw the Arcade Fire last night and they blew me away. Best concert I've been to all year. I really like the Greek Theater too. I think it was fun because so many friends were there, as well as so many.. well.. you know ;)
In general news, I love my friends. I have so much respect for them, and feel great to be included in their lives.
Current Mood:  accomplished
Current Music: "The Crane Wife 1&2" - The Decemberists
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12:56 am
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What happens when your myspace page is going through routine matinenece..
Is that even how you spell matinence??
I figured since I couldn't check my myspace, in the meantime I'd update this old thing.. seeing as the last time I did so was LAST year. Allbeit the end of last year, but it's 2007 and hey- you all wanna know what's up with me anyway..
I feel like I'm stressed out all the time. Stressed about school, stressed about what's going to happen after I graduate, stressed about what I'm eating, stressed about how I look. Stressed about writing the word stressed so many times in a row...
I want to sit back and enjoy the last few weeks of being in college, but it's been really hard to do so. Especially when a lot of the projects I was so looking forward to working on have been extremely dissapointing. That's the irony- a lot of things that I feel like I used to really love about school have been really awful reccently. People, teachers, stuff I have to do relating to it. So, maybe it is time to graduate. "BUT I DON'T WANNA" says the five year old girl stamping her feet inside me.
I feel like I can't stop thinking about how I stack up compared to other people. Talent-wise, looks-wise.. whatever. It's a really horrible habit. Spending countless hours on myspace and facebook don't help this. And if I want to perform for a living, I gotta get a reality check or something. It's a one-way ticket to crazyville if I don't.
But on a lighter note, I did Urinetown in January and it was a blasty bast. It was something I was really proud to be a part of it, and I think overall- that's a really awesome feeling to get from doing a play. To be proud of the work everyone in the cast does, even if it's not perfect, just to be proud. To be able to sincerely encourage someone to see it. It definitely does not happen all the time, so i'm glad I started off 2007 with a bang.
I want to start directing shit. I'm ready. Just throw some actors at me, I'll show em what to do. I promise.
Current Mood:  cynical
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07:24 pm
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A very Dolan 2006
Just about when I'd seriously given up any sort of hope for my pathetic little blog.. I've decided to jump on the bandwagon of top ten end of the year posts (that i've been reading everywhere), and put in my two cents.
So here we go- Don't judge... it ain't yo opinion anyway.
TOP FIVE ALBUMS
Clap Your Hands and Say Yeah- Self Titled
Why: Because it's catchy and indie, and it makes me think of my boyfriend and popscene.
Belle & Sebastian- The Life Pursuit
Why: It's a refreshing sort of album for B & S in my opinion, really fun and upbeat.
Islands- Return to the Sea
Why: The Islands are such an awesome new band reccomended to me by Joey P, also that hook in "Rough Gem" that sounds like the fire song is amazing.
Beck- The Information
Why: He's so fucking full of creativity and good songs.
Gwen Stefani- The Sweet Escape
Why: I will never stop loving Gwen, No Doubt, her clothing line, purses, or her sound of music influenced singles.
TOP FIVE MOVIES
Little Miss Sunshine
Why: Uplifting, funny and well-acted for a change.
12 and Holding
Why: Great plot, not too overdramatic and some damn fine young actors ( as in fine actors.. not fine looking)
Borat
Why: the same reason you liked it.
Science of Sleep
Why: Beautiful actors, beautiful movie.
The Departed
Why; Because it's fucking sweet. Excellent cast. Awesome story.
... Jesus-- could I have used "sweet" and "awesome" enough???? Lord I'm pathetic.
TOP TEN THINGS THAT HAPPENED TO ME (because you know you wanna know)
1. Going to England for a month, and doing Shakespeare.
2. Turning 21 and going to bars.
3. Floyd Collins.
4. I went on vacation to NYC with my boyfriend.
5. I saw one of my best friends get married. Oy vey.
6. Emo the Musical.
7. Boston, Vancouver, and Seattle.
8. Made two new really good friends. In addition to several other good friends.
9. Celebrated Valentine's Day fo' real.
10. Managed to not get fat.
Overall- 2006 was actually a really great year for me. I hope 2007 wont suck in order to compensate.
Anyways.. I graduate college in you know... five months or so. Crazy. Didn't I just graduate high school less than five years ago?
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: my brother playing Tony Hawk
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07:37 pm
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Monday Night Sass
Hey hey y'all..
So, the semester's getting into full swing and I couldn't be happier! Oh god. After reading that I almost want to smack myself. Anyways..
Classes are good. I'm taking a theater history class as well as American HIstory, and the time periods I'm studying in both classes are the same.. just one's in the US, and the other throughout Europe as it relates to theater. So it's really interesting to have the different perspective of what's going on.
I'm also taking a directing class, which is alright. It's exciting to be able to direct. It's something I didn't think I could do, but I'm finding out that maybe I can do it after all. It's also fun cause I have friends in the class.
Meanwhile, I'm rehearsing a new show! Floyd Collins. A musical about a man (Floyd Collins, to be specific) that gets trapped in a cave in 1925. It's actually a really interesting musical, written by the same guy that did Light in the Piazza. What's even more interesting is that I'm playing Nellie, Floyd's crazy sister, as opposed to Miss Jane, Floyd's stepmother (the part everyone assumed I'd get, myself included). Yay for non-mom parts! At first I was very nervous about this role, just because she sings super-high and soprano-esque. But after running through the music and a few voice lessons, I'm really excited. This is the first chance I've had to take on a larger role, especially in a musical, in quite a while. Like... since Fame.. summer 2002.. yikes..
I've also been in a relationship for just over a year.. and it feels... strange. It doesn't feel like that long, but it definitely has been that long. Not that it hasn't been awesome (if it wasn't I'm assuming we wouldn't be together!!!) I guess it just feels weird to be that "person in the relationship", you know the whole role of being someone's girlfriend. I'm not used to it.
Lost has also taken over my life. If you haven't seen it- you should. I watched two seasons (24, 45 minute epsidoes each) in about two weeks. Yikes. I have dreams about this fucking show. But oh man.. I cannot wait for Oct. 4th! Must find out what happens.. must..find...out..
ANYWAYS.. Went to the Folsom street fair on sunday... saw lots of ass and wang... if you wanna see the pictures check em out on my facebook page...
Current Mood:  relaxed
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04:58 pm
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Almost out of Nowhere
My journal still lives...
Maybe the reason I don't update really anymore is that I don't have much to complain about.. But I guess I do still have things I can write about so here goes..
My summer was awesome. It wasn't the best summer I've ever had, but I definitely learned a lot. I learned a lot about Shakespeare that's for sure, I learned a lot about myself, I learned a lot about being in love, my family.. etc etc...
England was good. Not great.. Not awful. But good. It was challenging. I haven't faced a real challenge in quite some time, so it was kind of shocking to me. Therefore- I freaked out, and spent most of the month I was there loathing myself in all aspects. But by the end I got over it, got up, and acted out some classical scenes- dammit.
I think my experience in England also would've been different if I wasn't attached. I seriously missed my fucking boyfriend. I cannot believe I just wrote that.. but I cannot deny it.
I also went to NYC about two weeks ago with the boyfriend. Now that was awesome. And no- it wasn't just awesome because he was there (although it did help..). It was awesome because I re-discovered how much I love New York City. And that I'm defintely moving there within the next ten years. San Francisco is amazing in it's own right, but it is definitely a transitional city for me.
And so the last Fall semester begins for me... Weird. I feel like I just fucking got here!!! Well.. it's not like I'm leaving just yet. But graduation certainly is around the corner. I think I'll just leave it at that for the moment.
I can't believe the way my friends have changed in the past three years.. Just thinking about who I was close with when I started and who I'm close with now. I feel like it's just been a revolving door of people that have come in, made an impact, and left. I don't think I like that. I wish I still had my close friendships that I had when i was a freshman... Hell, I wish I still had close friendships I made in high school.. well... to a certain degree anyway.
The two exceptions to this observation are defintely David & Traci. And now Traci's an actual reporter as opposed to a journalism major at San Jose State, and David's getting married. And I'm graduating in the spring... Jesus fucking christ.
Current Mood: relaxed
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06:02 pm
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Legal
So today is my birthday, but it's extra special because the United States of America is giving me the gift of being old enough to drink!!
In other news, things are well. Mostly. Maybe that's why I don't update so much anymore... I don't have much to complain about.. maybe not.
I'm leaving for England in two weeks to study acting at Hogwarts!!! Well not hogwarts.. but Oxford University, which they used in filming for Harry Potter. I'm stoked to go, it'll definitely be interesting. I'm not stoked to be without my other half for a month though.. that'll defintely suck balls.
So hey all you sf people that might read this- tomorrow night, 16th and Valencia, 1030 PM. Were hittin up every bar in sight until they close, or I puke all over myself. Either way it's bound to be entertaing. I want you to come, really I do. I want you to come and buy me a drink, seriously.
In other other news, I visited Seattle/Vancouver last week. Definitely good times. My advice: Never drive from San Francisco to Seattle.. It's just too long for anybody to ever be in a car.
Seattle was awesome. Went to Pike's Place, got fresh fish and dougnuts.. not simultaneously though. Went to the first starbucks ever, that was sweet- the mermaid's nudie!!! Went to the space needle, over priced and far too touristy. Went to the Expereince Music Project- totally awesome! I saw the hotel stationary that Jimi Hendrix wrote Voodoo Chile on!!! So crazy.
Vancouver= awesome as well. We smoked in a cafe ala amsterdam. So surreal and amazing. Met so many cool people from all over the place. Next time you find yourself north of the US Border, be sure to stop by Vancouver, BC- it's a cool place to be!
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: sister summoning me..
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04:19 pm
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PR for the BF
Go watch my boyfriend's take on middle school history.. starring him and some sock puppets...
...I helped make the sets....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GnmmnU_O-pY
Current Mood: content
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12:32 pm
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Hurry up and wait
Everything is strange.
All of a sudden, I have so much free time. On one hand, this is really nice. But on the other, bigger, more important hand- I think I'm going crazy.
I like having something to do everyday, all day with barely enough room to breathe. It makes me cherish whatever down time I have. It also makes having not that many friends feel less painful.
It's not that I don't have friends. I have plenty of friends, just not that many close friends. This sucks. I don't have anyone to call just to talk anymore, or someone that I want to hang out with all the time- that isn't super busy with other things.
It's also weird not being involved in any kind of production. I don't know what I would of been in otherwise, but my nights are always open now. What's worse is that everyone I could potentially spend time with is in some kind of show right now, and can't hang out.
I hate to admit it- but I've become the girl who spends entirely too much time with her boyfriend, thus distancing herself from having close friendships. But did I really have any close friendships before? I don't really think so. So maybe I'm not that girl just yet. I mean- most of the time when he and I hang out, we hang out with other people too. Okay so I take that back, I'm not that girl.
I'm... bored? No. I'm... uninspired? No.
I think I just want something to do that doesn't involve being by myself. So I guess that makes me lonely. How sad.
Current Mood: cynical
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01:32 pm
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But it's a day late for April Fools..
So since Friday, Alex has had to work early in the morning. Therefore, both of us have had to get up early in order for him to be at work on time.
Today, he didn't have to be in until 10:30, so it's about quarter to ten and both of us are lying in bed trying to think up excuses to stay in bed longer.
He says with glee, "Man, what if your clock was wrong- what if it's Daylight savings?!!" I respond, " that means you'd already be fifteen minutes late for work," "Oh, oh yeah that's right- this change we gain an hour!! That sucks". We then continue to briefly discuss the fact that we're going to be changing the clocks back soon.. you know, like in a few weeks.
It wasn't until we thought it was odd that Boudin had a sign that said "Back at 12" that we looked at our cell phones to find that we had in fact gained an hour, and it was 11:30 not 10:30.
I think that Alex subliminaly knew today was Daylight Savings. Hope you all sprang forward.
Current Mood:  tired
Current Music: Gold Lion- Yeah yeah yeah
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03:22 pm
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Circles
Well here I am again. I refuse to abandon this journal completely.
So, let's quickly recap the last... *coughcough*threemonths*coughcough*
January
- Since there wasn't any class, I spent most of January either
a.) rehearsing for Emo
b.) Getting stoned
or..
c.) with the boy..(yeah he's still around..)
February
- EMO! The Musical.. So awesome, so much fun, if you didn't see it- it sucks to be you.. because there ain't no video tape.
- Valentine's Day.. semi-uneventful.. but I actually celebrated it for once, so that's something
- rehearsed for The One Act Fringe
March
- The One Act Fringe- had sex with a dog onstage and sang about it, and went crazy in a car while being harassed by a crow all accompianed by an acoustic guitar.. good times indeed
- St. Patricks Day.. uneventful.. had to drive.. so no Irish Car Bombs for me!
- Saw Betrayal- which was awesome.. it feels good to be colleagues with such talented people...
- Someone decided to throw a rock at my windshield and shatter it.. in the VILLAS... so lame... fucking drunk ass dorm kids w/mini cooper envy!
- Crewed the Dance show... Crew fucking sucks. Enough said.
And now.. here we are at the beginning of April!
Spring break is this week, and I'm going to Boston on Tuesday to visit Deirdre.. which will be a lot of fun, seeing as I've never been to Boston before! Friday through Monday I'll be doing the NYC thing which might be fun.. hoping that most of my friends that live there aren't going to be busy!
I just found out that I was accepted in the British American Drama Academy for the summer! So, I'll be spending most of July at Balliol College in Oxford! Sweet! Sweetest part? The college that I'm staying at is where they filmed Harry Potter. I really hope I get to take a train from Heathrow Airport and board at the 6 1/2 platform or whatever..
Life is ultimately good. I have it really easy so I can't complain, because I know it wont always be like this.
Current Location: My apartment
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: Sigur Ros- Untitled
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08:03 pm
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My take on 2005 and then some
Not to be too emo or anything and quote Death Cab but..
So this is the new year...
My new year's eve wasn't very lively, but it was well spent. I went to Monrovia and spent it with Alex, getting stoned (off my new hannukah bong!) and being all boyfriend/girlfriend like in the jacuzzi. It was also the sixth night of Hannukah, so it was fitting that I spent it with another jew exchanging gifts.. I got him a coffee maker, he got me a bong. Devices for our vices, because that's just how cool we are.
My new year's day was spent still getting high off the hannukah bong, and then driving down to Orange County so Alex could observe me in my natural habitat. Needless to say, it was a good time. I re-kindled my long-time love affair with apples to apples, and I think my family & friends dug Alex.
As far as New Year's Resolutions go.. I think mine's going to have to be to really focus more on money, and try to manage it better. I'm horrible. Oh and I should try to be more clean.
2005 kicked ass. It really was a good year. I hope 2006 fares just as well.
Current Mood: content
Current Music: Brother beckoning me to play scrabble
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02:22 pm
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Recurring themes never fail to leave me
I feel like I haven't updated in a million years... or you know, a month or so.
My life's been good. I'm performing in Playthings at school again. And I performed in my friend's directing piece last week- "Lord of the Flies" onstage, with all girls! I played Ralph. And while getting there was kind of rough and hectic.. in the end, everyone ended up really liking it. So many rehearsals, so little time... Needless to say life's been busy. But what else is new?
Went to Hawaii for Thanksgiving and that was fun.. sort of. It was nice to see my family all in one place ( or was it...) I put on a bathing suit for the first time in.. God I don't even know how long. And for the first time- I didn't feel like I was wearing something that just really wasn't intended for me to ever put on.. ever. Getting home from hawaii was interesting- My 10 o'clock flight was delayed... until 5 o'clock the next day. The events inbetween these two flights consisting of me sitting in the airport for hours and hours.. not getting to a hotel until 530 in the morning... making friends with other passengers, considering I was traveling alone..all the while being subjected to god-awful hawaiian christmas music.. with December still a few days away.
So now it's what- six days after the first of December and jesus christ- winter is here let me tell you. It's been SUPER cold. But I like it. It's super clear, sunny and freezing. Ultimately my favorite kind of weather. I think I'd like it more if I didn't have a cold, but seing as I kind of inflicted the cold upon myself ( come on I hadn't see the boyfriend in over a week, you're gonna tell me I can't kiss him because he has a cold!?!! I think not) I can't really complain.
Internally- I can't explain what's going on really.. I'm just not satisfied with myself as a human being lately. I don't like anything I do. I'm not proud of anything I've done. It's pretty fucking bleak. I think it's this impending sense of doom that comes with the end of another semester of college.. which only means I'm one step closer to actually having to pick something to do with my life. I guess I just don't feel solid with my options. I feel like I don't have anything I could fall back on to actually make money outside of theater. And I don't feel like I could actually make money working in the theater either. Oh well. There's always the rejection of grad schools to present me with reality. Then I'll really have to decide.
Man, when did I become such a pessimist?! Or am I really just a... realist?
Bleh. I think I just school to be over before I get too caught up in the future..
Current Mood:  discontent
Current Music: "Once in a Lifetime" Talking Heads
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10:47 pm
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Guilty Pleasures are amazing.
I Ain't no Hollack girl. 'Specially when it comes to clothes yo.
| Your Celebrity Style Twin is Gwen Stefani | 
Trendsetting, unique, and stylish. |
Current Mood: Umm yeah.
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